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Aug. 17th, 2017 11:39 pm
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1. burned the crap out of one of my fingers making dinner tonight. hasn't blistered so far, but hurts. we only have 2 ice packs and no cube ice. both ice packs are currently in the freezer getting cold again.

2. i'm going out of town on Saturday through Thursday to visit smallest sister for the eclipse and to celebrate mom's birthday. we're kinda playing what stuff we're doing by ear. i'm not looking forward to air travel, but at least it's a short flight.

3. the SU played final fantasy xv and i tripped and read a lot of fic on ao3 so that's kind of being a fandom for me right now. i'd have liked the game more if there had been you know women in it, but the main 4 characters give me feels. i'd like to talk about it, but have determined that the fandom and i have different ideas on things. (like reducing the hereditary family that protects the king/queen and heirs to a bunch of dumb jocks despite the face the shield we spend the most time with literally is reading during all his downtime. gladio is a nerd and i will die on this hill.)

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Aug. 17th, 2017 09:25 pm
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It's been a long damn two days. Between capoeira and then working a normalish day but having come home and done a bunch of household chores after and basically I haven't stopped moving since yesterday morning and didn't get enough sleep and I am so damn tired. I almost fell asleep over my desk. Which would have been bad since I was labeling a bunch of pointy stabby clay tools.

But at this point I'm running on boxes of nerds to stay awake long enough to finish things and get to sleep and do the nightly reminders and ugh. I should buy things off and go to bed early if I can't.

I'm also having one of those moments where I look at Turing Shrugged and think, how arrogant am I that I can decide this novel is ready for publication when a small press publishing house didn't want it? It's a stupid weasel. I had already pushed to get it to the point where I felt comfortable giving it to someone as here-it-is-a-novel whether for submission or publication or whatever. And I have a second run-through in the works just to make sure Editrix and I aren't wrong. And I have vague plans to share it around with a circle of beta readers too? So yes, self, you are not passing off a half-assed product as a finished novel, you have done your duty. So that weasel can just go piss up a rope.

I bet I know where it comes from, is I'm reading over Long Road and cringing at large chunks of it and wondering where the hell all this pretentious writing came from, especially in this book. And if I could misjudge that so hard etc etc. But I already did feel dubious about Long Road, have for every damn draft, and this one is starting off promising so I'm hopeful that it won't end up being another draft for the bin (draft four! heh) so this is not an arrogance problem. This is the luck of Turing Shrugged came out, inexplicably, mostly right. So there.

Besides, Starlight is finishing up with its second draft and I can already tell it's going to need either heavy editing so it might as well be a third draft or an entire third draft. Blergh.

Oh well. I'm still mostly on course with all my writing crap, and I can work on THAT tomorrow. After, I hope, a good night's sleep.

On the other hand

Aug. 17th, 2017 06:32 pm
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I need to try to remember that I have a few chronic health issues, which means that even if the changes in diet and the injections have greatly reduced my daily pain levels, I still don't have have the reserves of energy that I wish I did.

Hi, I've been Doing A Lot Of Things since last week. And will be Doing A Lot Of Things for at least a few days going forward.

You all can stop giving me that terribly patient look. I know what you're thinking.

Not slowly going mad, and YARD SALE!

Aug. 17th, 2017 03:44 pm
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Apparently the key to me not slowly losing my mind from multiple nights of unsettled sleep while The Husband is away is to have people come stay with me. Kambriel and C. are here! And C. is being very understanding about his sleeping in the living room while I steal Kambriel to snooze in the bedroom with me. I've slept soundly for the past few nights, and it has been AWESOME. Also, y'know, they're some of my favorite people, so just having them around (even while I'm laboring in the tech content mines during the day) is a delight.

Because they're out here, we organized a super-last-minute yard sale! Because I have, um, a LOT of clothes to sell (yes, even after last year's epic yard sale), Thea has things to sell, and Kambriel brought goodies to sell! (I swear I will not buy up all of her bat pillows.)

Anyhoodle, in case any Seattle-area peeps are interesting in checking out the sale:

Saturday, August 19th
11:30am - 6pm.
122 N 105th St WA 98133

[food] Beans bourdeto, sort of

Aug. 17th, 2017 08:24 pm
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I went to Corfu! I was introduced to Corfiot bean stew! I was a fan. I am also struggling to track down a recipe that will let me recreate the But That's Amazing Though that I experienced there, because it's generally made with fish and there are relatively few recipes online, which means my ability to take the average of multiple recipes is limited. Nonetheless!

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... which I served up with The Rice Of My People, which I'd apparently somehow not made for A before; he is a Fan. It turns out. Read more... )
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Includes current politics + mental illness, HURRAH.

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OKAY THAT WILL DO FOR NOW.

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Aug. 17th, 2017 12:48 am
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hi does someone want to explain why in #dreamwidth
(12:42:01 AM) AlexSeanchai left the room (quit: K-Lined).
because if I did something wrong someone needs to fucking inform me, and if something else is wrong (I notice rodgort got the same treatment one second sooner) then let me flag it up for y'all who #dreamwidth IRC

ETA: I'm back in

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Aug. 16th, 2017 12:14 pm
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After a night's sleep, not a good one but not a bad one either given that I was woken up by Murdock and Mikey having confrontations at each other, did manage to get pretty quickly back to sleep. And after that I am still bummed about being rejected but no longer I suck I am no writer I shouldn't inflict my writing on anyone. So that's good.

I'm still physically exhausted tho. Maybe I shouldn't have had that burger for lunch but I was counting on going to capoeira. Or maybe this is just running around at work so I have time to write at the end of the day, that could be it, too. Not that there was that much running around but there was enough of checking things in, putting things out on shelves, and collecting things to ship out to schools that... bleh. Other than tired I don't really feel bad, so I guess I am going and training. Damn you. Yes you are. Because you enjoy training in the midst of things, you enjoy the results of it, you enjoy knowing how to move your body to kick ass, and you're much better at getting in a hard workout around other people.

Some days. Okay, most Mondays where I have any extent of work to do. Talking myself out of skipping class is a pain in the butt. But I've been talking myself out of skipping class for, what, three years now?

TWO. Two years. Okay, then. It just feels like three years. I actually think I feel better about my progress in some areas/lack of progress in others. (read: anything to do with handstands.)

And I got 500 words written, which isn't nothing. I'm getting some pages edited. I got the cover art done, not done-done but more cover art drafts for Turing Shrugged, Malachy, and Starlight done. I should figure out a blog post to do and a Patreon post on Turing Shrugged and if I'm very very lucky I can get a scene done on Starlight, and that's more than a full day's work, self, so it's okay to be tired and want to just collapse at the end of the day. It's fine.

Oy my brain. Trying to tell me I have to get everything done immediately, pack all the costumes for DragonCon tonight and so on. I bet this is a reaction to the rejection letter. Be all the productive! Do all the things! Shut up brain or I will stab you with a q-tip. See, this is why I need to go to capoeira, just focus on kicks and evasions for a while and not all the things I should have done or should be doing.

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Aug. 15th, 2017 07:52 pm
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Well. Today was once again mostly good on the personal stuff except one thing, and a complete and utter shitshow politically. I don't have the energy to get into that ridiculous destructive speech. I'm just ugh and swear words by now.

But Turing Shrugged got rejected from the second publication, which in a way I'd been hoping for because I wasn't looking forward to getting used to people not in my existing circle of trust telling me what to do with my novel? But it's still a rejection. It still hurts, it brings up all the old questions of whether or not I know what I'm doing, and I was already having "I'm a crap writer" feelings earlier today before I saw that. And now I want to put it all away and not show it to anyone and so on and so forth, and I have ... well, doubts. All kinds of exhausted doubts that are too tired to even take much hold. I don't know what to do.

My thinking brain has a plan of formatting it up, ordering a proof copy to share around the proof party of authors, maybe give a couple away, and doing the last final tweaks of this sentence here and this sentence there while I work up a marketing campaign? My first ever? I don't know what to do for that other than tweet about it and start working on my blurb copy.

I'm tired all over again, and I didn't sleep well last night, and I was tired and angry and sad before I got the damn rejection letter. And I keep thinking about the fact that I've never had a novel acceptance. Short stories some of them.

Ugh, I don't know. I'm feeling really, really sad and useless and stupid right now.

Weird, yet awesome. But also tiring.

Aug. 15th, 2017 12:49 pm
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The whirlwind trip down to PDX for filming was a lot of fun. The cast are adorable, the entire crew are wonderful and professional, and I had a lot of fun in my cameo-with-dialogue as a slightly concerned and disapproving Elder Goth. I wore an enormous hat, my sequinned skirt, and by lightweight black & gray striped bustle jacket made by my darling Kambriel.



(Me and the Executive Producer.)

The flight home was fraught, because the flight that was booked was cancelled, and I was bumped to an earlier flight. So filming went right up until I needed to run to the airport, there was a line at security, and I ran to my gate only to get there 5 minutes after the plane had taxied away.

But! Victorian goth girls bursting into tears motivates gate staff to find a solution. It turned out that there was an earlier plane to Seattle that had been delayed over an hour, and they were able to get me a seat on that.

The past couple days have been a whirlwind of friends doing some home repairs for me, getting a new washer and dryer installed, and a bunch of housework in preparation for having wonderful house guests. I'm kinda tired. But it's all worth it!

In other "my life is weird and awesome" news: A local radio station (and not one of the alternative or rock stations) has contacted me about doing an interview, because they have a running series of profiles on "interesting Seattle people". All righty, then!

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Aug. 15th, 2017 01:18 pm
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[personal profile] ysabetwordsmith is Poetry Fishbowling again—theme is "anything goes". which I think means prompt any damn thing you've the mind to but I'm taking her a bit more literally: my first prompt is "anarchy".

[food] Clafoutis/flaugnarde

Aug. 15th, 2017 09:40 am
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On Sunday I conned Adam into going blackberry picking with me (it's a bit more complicated than that, but the short version is he hadn't realised how much more tedious and unpleasant it is to pick wild blackberries than it is to pick pick-your-own strawberries), so we've got a large tub of blackberries that I'm gradually turning into beverages/desserts/etc. We also had the end of a pound-a-bowl bag of blueberries from the market, and I have been meaning to try clafoutis for years, so! Lightly adapted from River Cottage.

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Aug. 14th, 2017 10:19 am
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I don't even know what to do with things lately. One friend of a friend had a sudden abrupt death resulting from an accident, another friend's mother went into the hospital via ambulance eleven days ago and is now also gone, another friend went into the ER Saturday morning (but thankfully did not die, and is not ... too much worse off for it?) another friend's grandfather-in-law seems to be on his way out but at least it's not the most unexpected ever, just difficult. And in short what the fucking hell can the universe step off for five days or so?

Nngh.

Now really all the DragonCon expenses have been paid for, except obviously food, so all that's left is not buying all the makeup shinies seriously self, you can take what you have to play with your girlfriends and it will be fine. Or any other shinies and so on, including research books. And sweats unless the current ones develop massive holes suddenly. Or anything else. It's fine. Really. Self. The money is for a few weeks from now and then you can go spendhappy. Oy. This is why I can't have nice checking accounts.

(No, seriously, I keep most of my money illiquid FOR EXACTLY THIS REASON. Actually I should do that more often since I have two credit cards on which to put emergency expenses and it doesn't take that long to liquify some assets to pay off/down credit cards used in emergency. Besides, investments accrue faster than savings. Usually.)

(Bless you, grandpa.)

Anyway. Argh. I've spent most of today feeling dizzy for no goddamn reason so I got very little outside of day joblingations done. And I was going to mop the floor tonight but between all the daily shit I have to do and possibly still feeling dizzy I don't know if that's going to happen either. So this has been a fun day and about all I can say for it is I didn't have to go home sick and end up feeling even more guilty because I was wasting a perfectly good half-day not doing writer work but laying on the couch staring at the television and not absorbing any of it for my panels.

I got my panel schedule! I have an MCU panel, a Black Sails and a Vikings panel which amuses the shit out of me because I've been doing a lot of historical research lately, and a Sense8 panel. So I guess I'd better rewatch it all and start taking notes on at least Sense8. Black Sails and Vikings I even mostly remember at least as far as I've seen and I haven't missed much, so that's good.

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Aug. 14th, 2017 06:27 pm
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1. HOUSE HOUSE HOUSE HOUSE HOUSE. CONTRACT SIGNED. START DATE FIRST OF SEPTEMBER. \o/

2. [tumblr.com profile] kaberett continues explicitly Things That Make Me Happy, all the time, no politics. [tumblr.com profile] kaberabbits continues... all the rabbits, all the time. In case this is relevant to your interests. (Anything political would go on [tumblr.com profile] kaberants, but I just... Haven't Been.)

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Aug. 14th, 2017 12:25 pm
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Did I ever tell you about my high school Latin teacher? Ms. Kit Smoot. Studying with her I learned so much and had such fun and—

I wanted to tell her so many things, about how she helped get me to where I am today. But when I visited the school she was never there.

She died last night.

(I hadn't realized she meant so much to me.)

May her memory be eternal.
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