tada for the week

May. 4th, 2026 11:10 pm
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tada )

vital functions

May. 3rd, 2026 10:06 pm
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Reading. I am up to AUGUST 2025 in my She's A Beast back-catalogue catch-up. Will I be able to read Anything Else At All Soon? Maybe?

Among several library holds that have now turned up (... ulp) I have technically started Run Towards the Danger (Sarah Polley), another memoir about embodiment, which I... suspect was recced via SAB one way or another. By "technically" I mean "I am a couple of pages into the preface, and trying to decide whether the formatting fuckery is worth sticking through".

Writing. So. many. e-mails. about. objects. and I have barely even Started the damn Object E-mails good grief.

Progress on Book also continues (look at me not using qualifiers!). Currently I am slightly going in circles about (1) how much background I need to give on why I think "biopsychosocial" can be a useful frame at least to the extent of providing structure for the first big chunk of the book, (2) what you've got to be very careful you're doing if you want that to be the case, and (3) whether I need to engage in depth with the goddamn philosophy of it all in re e.g. "it's not a model if it doesn't have predictive power" (which I am extremely inclined to sidestep by just......... calling it a frame).

Playing. ... we have tripped and fallen and are playing Librarian: Tidy up the arcane library. Initially we were co-playing with A doing most of the driving and me going LOOK THERE'S A PATTERN-- but then it became apparent that my ideal mode of gameplay (keyboard rather than controller, Manually Shelve Each Book Individually) is not compatible with A's (controller rather than keyboard, Use All The Magic). So I got a second copy. And have been playing through it merrily and slowly. To my amusement it turns out that my specific bullshit here............ gets you the rarest of the Steam achievements. (I am about 2/3 of the way through shelving, and things are speeding up substantially in more or less the same way as they do with jigsaw puzzles. This has eaten my brain and I really really need to do Other Things that are Not This but gosh it gets quiet in here when Allow The Brain To Just Focus. Will I do any further rounds of it? Unclear.)

Cooking. Continue to appreciate braised chickpeas in all their forms (still v keen on Adding A Tin Of Artichokes to the party).

Eating. Had my second hundoburger, which I had deferred until after E1, for the purposes of having an additional day where I didn't need to think about food. Also: STRAWBERRIES; bakery brunch (feat. both the bread pudding and the cardamom bun); ... almost certainly other things but the brain it says no.

Exploring. Bakery brunch featured a detour to visit a red horse chestnut I'd spotted from the bus on my way back from yesterday's hospital appointment, and also pointing out to A the pink bits on some of the flowers on the standard horse chestnuts on the way there.

Technically Finchley Memorial hospital, but mostly I got on a bus I was familiar with and played sudoku to keep myself vaguely calm, and then I managed to NOT panic and get onto a bus going in entirely the wrong direction by dint of it pulling out of the stop sufficiently far ahead of me there was no way I was gonna catch up with it, and then got the unfamiliar bus in the correct direction and... spent significantly more of that panicking quietly. There was definitely A Point at which, it having become apparent that the bus was On Diversion and Not Following Its Usual Route and None Of The Normal Stops Were Happening, I equally quietly Gave Up and decided this was simply going to be yet another hospital service I got discharged from for being disabled, BUT in fact that service TERMINATED at the hospital (and was the only one serving it!!!) so it did get there in the end. I would still prefer to not do that journey again please and thank you, even though I did per the above spot a convenient local red horse chestnut on the return leg, and for that matter several dramatic wisteria hidden from road level but NOT from upper-deck-of-bus level.

Growing. A took me to the allotment this afternoon! The josta is setting quite a lot of fruit and the cherry is even managing some despite my utter failure to water them! I put some marigold seeds in the ground in between rows of broad beans though this is clearly futile because the red ants are already Very Definitely farming on them; the oca in the bottom half of that bed are starting to come up despite the utter lack of watering, as above; none of the seedlings at home died while we were away; ... I did some weeding?

Observing. BABY BIRDS incl. cootlets going WHEEK WHEEK WHEEK all the way up and down the river; the Egyptian goslings are now at the stage of mostly having vaguely competent adult plumage coming in but still managing to turn into balls of ungainly fluff when they sit down; a second batch of coot eggs is being Definitively Incubated. We did not see the duckle again but we did see a very small starling. It was a very pleasant brunch down by the aqueduct.

escapril 2026: #30 epilogue

May. 3rd, 2026 11:23 am
leanwellback: link's hand with the triforce of courage glowing (loz- for better days to come)
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it may feel like it's ended
like there's nowhere left to go
but things keep moving
life and light persist
stop awhile if you must
rest and recover
the world will be here
to greet you when you rise

pootling along

May. 2nd, 2026 11:45 pm
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Today I have:

  • successfully navigated some unfamiliar-to-me public transport with only the normal amount of panic
  • MADE IT TO THE GYM post-unfamiliar-public-transport (having been Indisposed this morning, when I had planned to--)
    • achievement unlocked: asked to borrow a pair of dumbbells from a much-stronger-than-me human For One Set while they were resting (because warm-up); they were a delight
    • achievement unlocked: politely asked the human in the next rack if I could have the yellow plates they... seemed highly unlikely to use
  • ... tripped and fell into Computer Game instead of doing most of the afternoon/early evening things I had grand plans about...
  • and we UNFUCKED THE KITCHEN SOME, good job us.

(Everything is still very much a post-event disaster, but. Made food ate food made a stand against the forces of entropy. It Is Well.)

escapril 2026: #29 half-lit

May. 2nd, 2026 11:10 pm
leanwellback: trees in a misty forest with a mossy floor (stock- to lose my mind and find my soul)
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my favourite times are in between
where shapes coalesce but stay unseen

things near, just at the threshold roaming
bright rays of day now gentle gloaming

on ground dappled with dreams half-lit
come with me to the edge and sit

escapril 2026: #28 touch-starved

May. 2nd, 2026 02:58 pm
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when the only hands laid on you
were hands of anger, of disdain
then hands laid in disappointment,
feel like love despite the pain

your speech is rash and glib
you stoop to get a rise
and hope to feel the sharp touch
of one with kinder eyes

when all you've known is hunger
you'll bite a hand that would feed
and any meagre crumbs that fall
feel enough to slake your need

[migraine] ... mrgh

May. 1st, 2026 11:41 pm
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Today has been. the first time in A While that I have spent mostly horizontal and mostly asleep on account of migraine, despite drugs. I am Not A Fan.

Read more... )

escapril 2026: #26 steady ground

May. 1st, 2026 10:36 am
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head up in the clouds
surely I will trip if my
feet hit steady ground

escapril #26 - mythology

May. 1st, 2026 10:29 am
leanwellback: hermes saluting as he flies past (hades- on it boss)
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patterns repeating
across generations and oceans
bright shining threads
woven through time
shaping the ineffable
with different names
and different forms
as many facets of a diamond
all part of the same truth

*

yes, I know it's may but I'm determined to finish these.

creatures!

Apr. 30th, 2026 10:20 pm
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Went into town this afternoon to post some things, and observed Several Creatures. The blue butterfly around the lilac near the top of the hill was very welcome; the Egyptian goslings are starting to look almost grown up, with eye markings and a general reduction in fluff and increase in sleek!

(Elsewise today: SLEEP, post-gym Spatzen, more free electrons and therefore more laundry; both social and solitary wiggles; good therapy; and some Tentatively Positive Communication re Admin: the LRP.)

SON OF A BITCH

Apr. 30th, 2026 12:10 pm
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June 2, 20206
NYC

AMC & AMC+ Present: The Vampire Lestat: One Night Only - LIVE

Lights Down. Volume Up. Fangs Out.

On the final stop of the band’s decadent North American tour, The Vampire Lestat transforms the Beacon Theatre into a cathedral of chaos. The night kicks off with the exclusive premiere screening of The Vampire Lestat—your first hit of the myth, the menace, and the music.

Then the one and only Lestat de Lioncourt hits the stage.

In full rock‑god form, Lestat unleashes a live musical performance soaked in swagger, spectacle, and immortal excess. This is part screening, part concert, part temptation—designed to shake the walls and leave the faithful wanting more.

One night. No restraint.

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This is one of those times that I'm sad I'm not an actual big-name influencer, because you just know some of those types will be flown out for this.

some good things!

Apr. 29th, 2026 10:56 pm
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  1. DID make it to the post office and get A Parcel into the post!
  2. DID make it to THE GYM, and was Charmed to notice that one of the other regulars was wearing unexpected-by-me nail varnish.
  3. We brought home many Field Treets and I am continuing to merrily vacuum them up with my horrid little mouth!
  4. Saw the bat! Hello bat. What a good bat you are.
  5. Very much enjoyed the Graun on a photographer who spent a year following the ZSL veterinary team (NB multiple images of post mortems in there).
  6. Negative electricity prices for a while in there today meant: Much More Laundry (most of which is dry), surprise and delight at A running the underfloor heating in the bathroom (WOM FEET); b r e a d; experimental autopyrolitic oven cleaning.

Eldergoth Nostalgia

Apr. 28th, 2026 05:01 pm
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Or to quote Rasputina, "The scene is never what it used to be".

I had a lovely, wistful sort of dream the other night in which [personal profile] solstice_lilac gave me an old compilation tape she had made long ago. (In the dream) I had a full stereo system with a tape deck that magically produced fantastic-quality audio, and I immediately played the tape. It was 120 minutes of gorgeous ethereal swirly goth music. I woke up with the melancholy realization that 1) I couldn't remember any of the bands on the dream tape, and 2) they probably didn't exist in the real world. 

But oh! It was lovely while the dream lasted. 

vital functions (ish)

Apr. 28th, 2026 10:29 pm
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Last week I:

  • finished weaving in the ends on A's gloves (before we hit site for the first event of the year)
  • read more She's A Beast
  • ate a bunch of food I didn't have to cook (current experiment: do Lichfield brownie bars only taste That Good in a field?)
  • explored Steeplechase LRP Centre when it had PEOPLE on it (and also when it didn't)
  • including seeing a green woodpecker!
  • and SO many birds of prey
  • made a bunch of unilateral decisions about where tents would go directly affecting two other departments in response to external constraints, and redesigned internal tent layout on the fly in response to different external constraints, and... it all worked???
  • rethought several steps in the lost property process and goodness that works way better and is much less stressful

and then today has been about half and half "sleep" and "endless lost property paperwork". And Now: To Bed.

tada

Apr. 27th, 2026 10:18 pm
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Headline: hooooooome.

The infrared scope of pointlessness

Apr. 27th, 2026 12:04 pm
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(Thank you, Fall Out Boy, for providing post titles.)

I'm currently at THREAT LEVEL: BANDOM, which is different from me just deciding to listen to the bandom playlist. Mostly because it's an early sign (warning?) that my stress levels mean I'm starting to hit the "Pete Wentz gives voice to deep emotional truths in all of his lyrics" stage, which is entertaining but a little worrying. In other words, it's a super early signpost for the road to Crazytown. 

My stress levels are high because a) being out with food poisoning last week meant that I lost a lot of traction on work projects. I knocked off a few of them on Friday, and today is about nagging multiple PMs to give me the information they promised to provide LAST week. The more things change and so on. 

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I can also tell my stress levels are high because I've been looking at blog posts/watching videos about Whitby Goth Weekend in the UK to decide if I want us to visit Whitby on our UK trip, and I keep rolling my eyes at the steampunk folks. Which is unkind and mean-spirited of me, but the romantic and vampire goths want our damn top hats, frock coats, and jabots back, dammit.

I've decided against Whitby, because my research has shown that any of the things related to Dracula are, well, kind of silly/tacky. (Part of the book is set there, for those who haven't read it.) Also, I'd much rather go to Glastonbury and roam the witchy and eccentric shops. 

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Guess who is contemplating adding even more talismans to the 24/7 necklace stack? No, I don't know why I feel that I need to, but whooo do I.

event: achieved

Apr. 26th, 2026 11:59 pm
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Still some tidy up to do, but. Did.

Loftia closed beta

Apr. 26th, 2026 03:55 pm
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Loftia looks cool. It's currently in closed beta for the next two weeks or so, which I have neither the time nor the mental space for, but I'm keeping an open eye.

It's billed as a cozy MMO, so something in the same genre as Palia, which I've been playing and loving for about a year. The difference is, although Palia has some sustainability themes in the main quest, Loftia's genre is pretty explicitly solarpunk. From the early gameplay that I've seen streamers do, it's not quite gunky enough to suit my preference for solarpunk, but it's also not fully shiny/fixed/idealized, IYKWIM. There's a salvage skill, for example, where you can collect bits of plastic and stuff from discarded junk.

Plus, the setting is a bunch of flying islands, which is just awesome. No purple elves, though. No elves of any color, as far as I can see.

escapril 2026: #25 thread

Apr. 25th, 2026 09:38 pm
leanwellback: princess zelda holding the master sword before her, eyes closed, the hilt covering the lower part of her face (loz- the last thing that's holding me)
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wound tightly around itself
in knots or simply hanging
loose, unspooling
waiting for a finer point
to guide and strengthen
to make a whole
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